the student life

I have been fighting with a friend lately.. We are just going different places and value different things. This is difficult for me in many ways.
One, I dont like to lose friends, and two she is in my department and I work with her. I watched her son grow up. In short I am emotionally vested in this person.


But sadly I see her declining. She is no longer the bright go getter that I befriended, but rather a husk made of complaints and drugs.

I have tried to talk to her about it, but she just ignores me.
Our fissure was apparent in our most recent conversation about our weekends.

I had finished my sexual politics in roman law essay, cleaned, fed my cats, worked out at the gym, and had brunch with a friend.

She however "got stoned, hung out, got stoned some more, drank, went to a concert, got stoned"

I feel powerless to help her, but I also feel lonely. When she talks about her friends partying, I remember that I spent Friday night finishing a book about Russian history and playing with my cat.

Its not that I dislike my little life, its not that I dont have fun. I think its just that the things that I value are hard to find in some one else.
For now, school will always come first. Before friends, before relationships, before myself. Because for me, with out education, I would be my friend, forever.